Change... is inevitable...I wished it wasn't..

This year I dun feel like myself....I feel very awkward all of a sudden. Before, in the presence of friends, I would approach and start the convo. Now, I don't feel like talking, I don't feeling like adding much. Today during the trials, I just realised didn't say a word other than the usual 'HaHa!' and 'Ok', other than the times I'm forced to.

I have the unusual feeling that I'm wasting my breath...and suddenly the momentum to engage is gone....Please someone tell me why!!! Is it some sort of warning? (hinting at God....)...Taking comfort at the thought of the Reaper...